I Miss You Like Crazy.

I used to call you my boy
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again


I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Boy I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

Missing You Like Crazy!!!!!!

For the past 12 years, I have actually have eyes on you already. Although I'm just a small kid last time, I have fallen for you since then. Now, I know that I must try to forget about you already, but till today I still can't do it. Maybe I still have high hopes on you, and I know that you will never know about this, because you will never read this in your life. Every night before I sleep, I will think about you, I have no idea why I can't control my mind, it just comes naturally......I really miss you like crazy.....you will never know that forever. FATE DO PLAY A BIG ROLE BETWEEN US!!!!!!! HELP ME, GOD!!!!!!!

This is actually my fault, if I have treasured you more since last time, then you will be mine forever already. I know that we have been best friend since young, and this fact will never change in life already. Everytime when I see you with your girlfriend, it felt like my heart has been slashed into half, it really hurts like hell, help me!!!!!!! Should I just give up?? This feelings and situation really tortured me until I feel like crying, but I control my emotion and try to be tough. I do looked tough from the outside, but my heart already bleed and shatterd into pieces!!!! I know you since young, and I felt that it will be a waste if our friendship ends just because of my stupid act and thought. Should I just listen to my best friend's advice to just forget about him?

Help me!!!!!!!! Someone please slap me, I can't take this anymore!!!!!
I really miss you like CRAZY!!!!!!

Poem

I live through my dark existenceonly to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through your hair
that touches your lips
I long to touch you
to hold you in my arms but I cannot
for your heart belongs to another
so, I can only love you from afar
your friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day
I know that we are only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day miracles will happen.

.......

FATED TO LOVE YOU !!!!!!

Miracles? Memories.

~Miracles?
~Hope that miracles happen.
~For once and be satisfied.

~Seeing you more often send my heart into frenzied palpitations.
~Turning back time and wondering, young times are always the best.
~Playing around such as playing ' hide and seek', 'pictionary', 'chasing after each other' and many more make me think of you more often...dearest old friend.
~Going for holidays and spending precious time together make me miss you even more.
~Will it be like last time again?
~Stop dreaming !!!!!!! [ ME ]
~I know that I have missed out that chance and I know that I will never get what I want now.
~I should have treasured you more since last time...dearest old friend.
~Turn back the time please!!!!
~Miracles did not happened last year, should I just give up????
~Everybody knows that the big ' M ' word, MIRACLES, hardly happen. 1%.
~STOP DREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [ ME ]

~I know that you will never read this, so it is just fate that will play a big role between us after all.
~As time pass, will everthing will fine?
~Miracles do happen in real life.
~Hopefully.

Progree Test Results

Got back my progress test results this week....luckily I did quite ok....
Hopefully that I will always get these kind of results....
Actually I can't hope, it's a must for me to do it!!!!!
Go Stephanie!!!! U can do it!!!!!

Joyous, I miss you so muchie!!!!!!

Tired

One word to describe college life, TIRED!!!!!!
Went to college today to take my Progress Test 1 for paper 1 and paper 2.
The test was fine, went throught everything with ease.
Scoring high marks are the problem. Need self-motivation to score high.

After college, went to Pyramid with friends. The "Mega Sale" was like "Oh My God", so many people are still buying things like crazy although times are bad now.....they are rich people so it's ok!!!! Stephanie, "U must "gambateh" to be like them, then U can shop till U broke!!!!!" Wrongly stated by the way, " U won't be broke, although U shop like a crazy lady"...haha, because U are rich!!!! Stop dreaming Stephanie, work hard!!!!!

That's all for the day, homeworks are waiting for me now.

Frustration

What a DAY!!!!!!
Hate it so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hate!!!!! Hate!!!!!! Hate!!!!
I hate you so much, for a small mistake I made , you also want to scold me like hell!!!!!!
Hate You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really really HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Go To Hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Curse you, go and DIE!!!!!!!! ( My curse is always true, BEWARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
You know who you are!!!!!!!
So, just shut up!!!!!!

Busy

* Went to Singapore during June and I have been really busy lately....sorry guys, for not updating recently.

*Chaoz again.....will post my photos about my trip in Singapore.