Upside down

One meal for me a day is more than enough. If I had told you that I'm not hungry and would not like to eat, do not force me yeah. Eating sometimes just make me wanna puke, Gosh! What has happened to me? I really have no idea at all.

I'm old in the body!

I'm just a 20 years old girl, and I do feel that I'm having the body of a 30 years old woman, my whole body is aching like crazy nowadays. I think I need a massage like seriously! Perhaps my whole body is really tired with the hectic schedules of my life recently, I think I have not taken a good real break or rest for the past 2 years plus, because my course do not permit me to take a good long rest!

I'm now feeling so jealous of those friends of mine that have so long break, like 3 months break, that they can enjoy until the maximum, and when I only have 'ehem ehem...' pathetic 2 weeks break in the interval of 6 months once?
Shit, I promised not to grumble and complain anymore, I'm just too tired, and I need to vomit everything out on my blog okay? I'm just an ordinary human.

I wish and hope and wish and hope that I can have a good vacation or getaway or maybe a small break, so that I can feel the 'peaceful-ness' , while trying my best to get away from the hectic city with the hectic life that I have.

I want to go the beach and relax myself like there's no tomorrow to worry about, or perhaps somewhere nearby where I can breathe in fresh cool air. Yeah!

Days that are tough are not to be mentioned please.

Yesh, as you can see from the title above, my days are becoming more challenging, by the way, 'challenging' is the right word to use right?, and not torturing right?
I need a positive mind now, to encourage me in my next papers, without the motivation, I have no idea what will happen to me.

Dear friends, if I have neglected you guys, sorry yeah!
Please understand me as I have so little time with so much of materials to study for my finals.
Yeah, I'm now preparing for my MOCK and my finals, you guys must be saying preparing so early, and I'm a 'kiasu' right? haha....I would rather prepare early for my exam than preparing it last minute! I cannot take last minute stress and pressure, I shall spread out the stress and pressure during the early period of the semester!

Okay, I'm still waiting for my Nokia E5 lah, hopefully one of these days, it will drop down from heaven right? hahahaha....I'm day-dreaming lolx. and and and my Katy Perry 'Teenage Dream' album, that has candy-like scent on the CD, OMG! just imagine me smelling the CD all the time, hahahaha....kind of horny lah.

Moments to be happy!

Look at the picture, and say I need it...hahahaha...

I'm super glad and thankful that I have made through the 3 papers that I took for my finals, last semester! Thank God for being so kind to me, and answered all my 3 prayers...

To treat myself for the achievement, I have decided to buy myself a new handphone, haha....would like to get the Nokia E5, it's a new model, although mum is like 'why do u need a new handphone ah?, ur handphone is usable right?' , and I was like, ya, but then I want to treat myself, so I will work harder, a motivation lolx.'..hahahaha...

Me.

Although I'm now super tired that I can feel that my body is super weak, studying for my finals!......,


So, it will be very kind enough for the time to stop for a moment, so that I can breathe some 'relax air'.....then continue studying again!



...but once thing for sure!! I will never never never ever give up in my life!...because we live in this earth to make sure that we did our very best in everything, so that we will not regret later on....RIGHT DEAREST FRIENDS?
So, everybody let's work hard and smart and the most important thing-->we must always believe in ourself no matter what happen in life, to achieve our goals yeah!

Running out of time...

Finals is in two weeks time and I'm still here blogging, perhaps this post will be my last post, I shall resume blogging after my finals.
I can feel the pressure and the stress, it's just so 'I don't know how to describe' lolx.
I promise myself that I will study 24/7 yeah!
Lock myself in my room and never see the outside world, I will do that until my finals are over, because I admit that I'm so desperate for a pass or even scoring high marks for every papers!
Desperation, self-discipline and believing in yourself are the main motivation factors towards success people!

There's another thing, other than my studies that are still bugging me, I just don't understand 'some' friends nowadays, they are just super weird. I shall not care so much though, because I really cannot read their mind, I'm not a superwoman okay, I'm just an ordinary human living on this Earth.
To who that may concern and also the person that will never ever get the chance to read this post, I will forgive you if YOU are really sincere in asking for a forgiveness, because everybody is given a chance to be forgiven for their mistake, at least once!...but you made me angry and disappointed twice, how?
Can you imagine when you have respect and think that the person is really a good friend at the highest level of ratings that cannot be rated anymore, and in just a few seconds, everything came crashing down like nobody business, it is just like something that fell from 10 feet high, that feeling is just so disappointed, do you know that?

Another thing that is just so important in life. To build a trust and faith in a person just take so much effort and time, but a painful incident is enough to lose the trust and faith that you have build in that person.

Life should always be like this...

Always enjoy life, no matter how hard it seems!

When life give you a thousand reasons to cry. Show the world that…

You have million reasons to SMILE!!!

Fed up and I'm super upset+angry!

I'm super upset and angry, my tolerance level has already reached the maximum level that I can tolerate no more, this is just so ridiculous, nobody can ever tolerate this in life!

To someone that he will never read this, if you don't feel like fetching me, just tell me straight in my face, why must you do some stupid+irritating+ridiculous thing to shoot up my temperature? If you had tell me properly, I will still accept it and treat everything just like normal, but now, I just cannot treat you like any normal friend. I just hate everything right now about you, why a friend like you can turn into a creature in a few months?

Once upon a time, you are almost a perfect person that I respect as a friend, now I don't even give a damn about you! Trying to recall, this is the 2nd time you had actually made me that angry! I know I don't have the right to get angry at you, but then I'm just a normal human, I do have feelings okay! I don't like being played out by somebody that I used to call them friend! It really hurt, I don't even know am I supposed to be sad or angry at this moment!

Okay, I really have enough of all these craps, I want to study until crazy and forget about everything, because being busy really helps me alot right now!
I need to graduate and earn big bucks, most importantly I must defeat those that played me out in everything, perhaps I must be their superior next time, then only I will satisfied!

Yay!

Finally, I'm really happy with what I'm currently doing!
After all, ACCA is not that tough though. Although many people said that ACCA is a killer course, I don't think so though, because I'm in love with that course, not to say that I'm crazy, but then I do have the passion now. I felt that this course is really interesting right now.
There's time when it's hard, but when you try to like what you are doing, everything will be amazing! Seriously!
Try to connect what you are learning to real life, then everything will be much more easier!
I do feel more motivated to study nowadays...haha..

My days.

Recently, I'm super busy with my life...precisely I'm actually studying like a crazy woman, I said so, because I don't do that during my last semester. This semester is like I'm chasing after a bullet train, trying to get everything done, with what I'm supposed to do, before it is piled up like a mountain.
My weekdays are just totally insane. Going to college for lectures, then taking public transport back home, then revise at night again. I just need to withstand the pressure, I only need another one and half year, and I'm done!
I'm getting my degree this June!
Time really flies and I don't even have the time to look back sometimes!

What make things worse is that taking public buses and KTM back home are just totally insane, I can actually die because of tiredness! Seriously! WTB! (What the barbeque)

I need a gift to reward myself please!
I want a GUESS watch and a new Nokia handphone, KILL ME please!

Huge Ang Pau!

OMG!
I freaking passed all my papers that I took last semester!
I'm super super happy, because all my hard work are all paid back, I love you so much GOD!
I'm very thankful to GOD for helping me all this time, guiding me through the right path, I will work even more harder and smarter to make sure that I maintain what I have now, I promised!

This is the biggest 'Ang Pau' that I got this Chinese New Year!

Love Quotes

1.) All love that has not friendship for its base,Is like a mansion built upon the sand.
2.) It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages.
3.) Love is blind, but marriage restores its sight.
4.) Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear.
5.) Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into friend.
6.) It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most paintful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person how you feel.

Life Quotes

1.) I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer.
2.) You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you're going to live. Now.
3.) Study as if you were going to live forever; live as if you were going to die tomorrow.
4.) Life is not measured by the breaths you take, but by its breathtaking moments.
5.) Where there is love there is life.
6.) Live your life and forget your age.
7.) Life is short, but there is always time enough for courtesy.
8.) In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

My body is killing me!

Gosh! This is the worst flu that I have before!
It's 1 a.m. and I cannot go to sleep, thanks and no thanks to the 'damn stupid' flu okay!
My nose is just like a running tap that is flowing non-stop, tell me how to sleep in this condition?
Maybe I should thank God, because I can actually use this time to study for my 'Progress Test' right?
Yeah, my brain cannot even funtion properly, how to focus on my revision right now?

Speaking of the worst thing, today I had around 9 hours of lectures, can you imagine how I managed my day trying to focus every seconds?
Feeling feverish and having flu the whole damn day okay!
Alot of effort is needed to stay focus during lectures, especially when I'm sick.

Hey Yong Yun Ming, I would like to wish you all the best in your upcoming undertakings yeah!
I will call you Dr. Yong when I see you next.
Take care in Australia yeah!

Good news and Bad news

The good news is that I'm have already got him out of my mind, not even thinking about things that are related to him, I don't give a damn to him anymore!
Yeah, super happy can die!

The bad news is that I feel like I'm getting sick really soon. Gosh!
My first progress test and Chinese New Year are approaching, I want to be healthy.
*Vitamin C is needed*

I'm fine already.

I'm not emo okay, I'm just so into that two songs below:
Friends, Lovers or Nothing,
All We Ever Do Is Say Goodbye.
By John Mayer.

I have other better things to do than being emo.

All We Ever Do Is Say Goodbye.

All we ever do is say goodbye. (by John Mayer)

Just when I had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
You say you wanna try again
But I've tried everything but giving in

Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

I bought a ticket on a plane
And by the time it landed you had gone again

I love you more than songs can say
But I can't keep running after yesterday
Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

We say goodbye
We say goodbye
We say goodbye

All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
(to fade..)

Friends, Lovers or Nothing.

Friends, Lovers or Nothing. (by John Mayer)

Now that we are over
As the loving kind
We'll be dreaming ways
To keep the good alive
Only when we want is not
A compromise
Ill be pouring tears
Into your drying eyes
Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never be the inbetween
So give it up
You whisper "Come on over"
Cause your two drinks in
But in the morning I will say
Good-bye again
Think we'll never fall into
The jealous game
The streets will flood
With blood of those who felt the same
Friends, lovers, or nothing
You see
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never an inbetween
So give it up
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We can really only ever be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
Don't you know
We'll never be the inbetween
So give it up
No we'll never the inbetween
So give it up

My precious weekend.

I'm filled with tonnes of homework without fail, after every classes.
Weekend now is loaded with homework and lesser outings, sad.
Although I'm busy with homework, but then I still enjoy my tennis during the weekend!
And not forgetting swimming session during Sunday! Yay!

It's Monday again tomorrow, schedule for the week is starting from the beginning again.
Time flies.
January's ending and February is approaching, means RESULTS are going to be released really soon, I'm terrified people!

Love Quote.

'3 words, 8 letters; say it, and i'm yours ♥ ♥ '
Guess what is the whole phrase huh?

Another love quote: ( I saw this from my friend's status updates)
In every girl's life there will always be three guys...the one she loves, the one she hates, and the one she can't get enough of...and at the end...they´re all the same guy. (This is so so True!)

Awkward eye contact.

A picture to describe awkward eye contact. Haha.

No worries, when you are a little high.

Finished my homework,
headed to the kitchen,
poured the Vodka,
drank it and I'm now High!

Precisely, I'm now super happy without worries and stress nor emo at all!
A good way to live without worries for a night.
Forget about everything, and start the day afresh tomorrow!

I love being in this way!

I'm quite done now.

It's either a sad case or a super duper happy moment!
I'm quite done with him already, feelings are fading day by day... haha!
Cheers!

Tonnes.

Tonnes of homework!
Doing my homework nowadays really test my patient!
I tried to attempt my questions so many freaking times and I cannot get the accurate answer!
Arrgh!!!!
Not to give up, because I do believe that the way to success, one must be patient and hardworking!

Marriage life before and after.

Before marriage.
Darling here.. darling there...
After marriage.
Baling here... baling there..

Before marriage.
I die for you. . .
After marriage.
'You die, up to you.
'Lagi lama married.
You want to die? I help you!

Before marriage.
You go anywhere. . I follow you.
After marriage. .
You go anywhere. . up to you .
Lagi lama married.
I go anywhere, better go without you!!

Before wedding
you are my heart, you are my love'
After wedding'
you get on my nerves.

'Before wedding'
you are sweet and kind just like Cinderella
'After wedding'you are worse than godzila

'Before wedding
Roses are red, violets are blue.
Like it or not, I'm stuck with you
After wedding
Roses are dead, I am blue.
You get on my head, I will sue you

Before wedding
Every makan he brings you to Shangri-La
After wedding
You want to go, he says you wait-la

Before wedding
She looks like Anita Sarawak
After wedding
Don't know whether katak or biawak

What goes around, come around.

Why must I suffer these type of uncertainties and dilemmas almost every 6 months once, it's just so unimaginable, how am I going to go through all these craps now!
I just can't forget about that issue every now and then, although I promised my fellow friends that I will forget about everything and start a new life in 2010.
I wanted to cry at times so badly, but then tears will not flow down no matter how hard I forced.

After all, everything must end well.
Hopefully.
Cheers, *smile* a forcefully smile is what I can offer right now.

Okay, to keep my mind from thinking about that issue right now is to start studying like crazy.
Hopefully I will not go insane.
*pray hard*

Angry and totally pissed off.

Althought I'm quite angry and pissed off, but then I will try to calm down, because in a calm situation, I will not do things that will make me regret, just like ehem, slapping people straight on their face!
*breathe in breathe out*...trying to take in as much oxygen and calm down lolx.!

I want to hate him, but I can't, because I know that hating a peroson will make my life more miserable.
Fine, I don't give a damn anymore!
Back to study mode!

Engine is starting.

My engine is getting warmer and it is starting to work a little bit on the slow pace during the first week of classes.
Gosh, I must make sure it is speeded up mend!
What the hell, this is only the first week of class and I'm already feeling the stress!
I can feel that a huge Tsunami is approaching me very soon, and I will make sure I survive the HUGE WAVE OF TSUNAMI!

Study! Study! Study!
I hate last minute, I will start studying right now as in tonight!
Trying to Nerd book and at the same time enjoy my life lolx!
Time management people!

OMG!

I tempt Daniel and he tempted me too!
Shit!

I wanna be in Singapore right now!
Really OMG!
Singapore oh Singapore, why are you so small yet so efficient?
I love Singapore!

I'm done with 2009!

Yes, it's 2010 and I'm now a new person with new resolutions and new goals to achieve!
Good news, I have already gave up on that fellow that causes me going up and down all the time! I'm now a more happy person, I promised!

New year with new goal to achieve, that is to pass all my ACCA papers!
I'm going to Singapore really soon after I finish my first few papers, because I would like to work there for exposure, then continue with my last few papers there or elsewhere!
I would like to stay there forever if I can do that!